Three months!

So the 19th was my official three months on Weight Watchers! I am hovering at 20 pounds gone. I say hovering because I seem to be gaining and then losing the same few pounds. This has been for about three weigh ins now! I am frustrated! I am annoyed! I have tried to tweak everything I can think of to help me lose the pounds! UGH!! I have added steps to my routine, with my elliptical workout and my 80’s dance routine! The scale is my enemy now! But my clothes tell a different story! I have 8... yes 8 darts to hold up my jeans! My older clothes at the back of my closet...are fitting me now! I can almost “see” a waistline now! 😳 And yet, I’m stuck in a rut! GRRR....I know all the possibilities of why, I’ve done research, I’ve read other posts from my WW group page. I’m just so... so...at a loss as to what I should tweak, change up, delete, add to jump start my body and start dropping pounds again! I know I’m not alone in dealing with this. And it does help that the wonderful people on the group page are so kind and helpful and understanding. But somehow I just want to go somewhere and scream until I have no voice left!

So that’s where I am now everyone! Stuck and hovering....

I said in the beginning of this Journey To Health, that I was going to be as transparent as I could so here it is. It sucks being obese in a world that seems to be geared for people who aren’t obese! I got rude looks in the bathroom at the grocery store Saturday. I used the handicapped stall because the regular stalls are too small. A lady with a young one needed that stall as it also has a fold down changing table! I tried not to feel angry but I almost let her snotty face have it with a ‘ I Can’t use the regular stall, it’s too small and I can’t wipe my ass’ comment. But I held it in! Needless to say, it soured the rest of my day and I have had two days of headaches from the tension. Breathe in, Breathe out, Breathe in and hold it.5,4,3,2,1 and exhale slowly thru my nose! Cleansing breathes! I know it’s my own fault I got this way. I know it didn’t happen overnight. It won’t come off overnight either. But is it too much to ask for people to show some compassion these days. SMH.

So that’s it for this post. I can feel the little niggles of pain coming back so time for more headache pills☹️

Tomorrow is a new day, a new week and another chance to be better than I was today. I will do my best to make every day this week better than the day before!

God Bless everyone 🙏🏻